Through the years,

if wasn't my dad..

I can never suvive for such a long time..

This really makes me unbreathable !!!!

Being her daughter for around 20 years,

I still couldn't understand why it is so harmful for me

to hang out with friends just once a while ?

And why it is a sin if I meet up my ex-schoolmates ?

But recently,

I feel that close bond between dad and me isn't that close as before..

He used to try his very best to get me anything I want..

and even will to help me lie to mom when I go out with friends..

As a girl who's turning into 20 for several months later..

the saddest thing is --

I don't really deserve the rights that

suppose to be deserved by a 20 years old girl =/

This makes me even angry whenever they say :

Dammit !

in the aspect of thinking even I'm only 19 this year !!!!!!!!!!!

I hate people doubt about my maturity !!

Especially my parents

who are suppose to understand me more than the others

And age is just a number !!!

What's the big deal of the digits ??!!

I really afraid of the number of 20 ....

This is my last adolescence phase..

after this.. no more teenage stage for me...

Both of them eventually create

a dilemma in me...

Signing off;

Hze =3

4:49 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

I probably think too much of the weird facts
or read too much funny articles during the daytimes...

Last night,

I had another weird dream.

Ridiculous ?! Hilarious ?!

I thought of the same thing when I first woke up this..... morning

a very early one , 8:57 am

Seriously,

I'm not very sure where I was heading in the dream

but it was for sure that happened during those old days

because ferry seem to be the main transport mode for people.

I was in a ferry with another person who I dunno who is she to me =/

We were at the harbour,

waiting for the ferry to set sail.

The ferry was crowded

but the place where I sat wasn't irritating at all

yet not really comfortable..

I reckon maybe it was just like our air flight nowsday

that offers a business airfare or an economical one

Perhaps I was on board of the business on xP

When everything was just fine,

here comes the climax.....

Occasionally,

I saw several pigs came up from the sea,

walking across the harbour.....

their sizes are bigger than the usual ones we have...

because when they were travelling,

you gonna make sure that your mouth is shut tightly !

Not to afraid of making sound

but to afraid that you might accidentally drink

the sea water on the body of pigs as they splashed around while walking !!

Yuck !! That's really make me sick !!!

Personally,

I stayed extremely alert

because you never know whether

those 'sea pigs' are mad or what,

any one of them might just turn their head suddenly to attack you !!

Finally,

the ferry started to set sail..

but then, immediately,

with a size almost as big as a lorry but shorter than it a bit

rushed up from the sea to chase us at the back !!!!!!!!

I wish that I could know what will happen on the next

but unfortunately I have woken up =.='''

Gosh !

This time is the pigs can stay under water !!

I remember last time I dreamt that

I wonder what's wrong with my brain

remains restlessly even during I sleep ...

Signing off;

Hze =3

10:18 AM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

You know, sometime,

certain friendships are really special.

Here, I'm so glad to have one.

I don't think we spoken to each other (face to face) more than 10 sentences before...

And we never had a chance to be in a same class...

Moreover,

we both entered to two different schools when come secondary stage..

Generally,

we really have no common topic to about seriously...

But, I know she always give her moral support to me.

She'll never forget to send me a sms during every celebration

or to wish me good luck in examinations.

Another thing of her,

she is so afraid that I might cut myself one day due to extreme depression.

(LOL !! I hope my mom could believe of that too =/ )

Nah~ I'll never hurt myself ..

but for the others, I couldn't promise that xP

A special friend of mine ,

Thanks for your everything

and I really appreciate them sincerely =)

___________________________________________________

Taylor Lautner is running through my mind

since that day I went for the New Moon

I think I've finally found out what's my weakest point on men..

I might never ever charmed by a extremely good-looking guy.

I used to say that I'll never want a boyfriend..

But based on this serious condition..

If a muscular man strips off his top in fornt of me..

Gosh!

LOL, Hazel's crazy right ?

Probably. xD

Signing off;

Hze =3

4:08 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

with a ceiling that I can never reach my hands on it

Perphaps I'm a greedy one.

But this is definitely not what I want...

Maybe it's my own nature

or been influenced by the countless environmental factors

making me to be such ambitious..

An undoubtable fact is --

it's the safest place for me

though it isn't belong to me

and I will never want it neither !!

Oh no!

This is just the second week ever since the holiday has started..

but I feel like I have already idling at home for thoudsand days..

Besides water,

books really play the second important role in my life...

without them;

how could I preserve my sanity?

I doubt that,

will I still stay in this consciousness few months later??

As I said,

I prefer schooling days

if those subjects weren't that torturing...

Girls,

Signing off;

Hze =3

5:02 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Remembering you were standing on the stage
It was the my very first time to see you.
Though I couldn't see you clearly from a distant,
but you were the one that's shining out so bright
in the sea of people.
To the only boy who I fell in love at the first sight;
maybe you never know that
the silliest thing that I have ever done in my entire life
is trying so hard to seek for your little attention..
A mixture feeling of nervousness and great pleasure rushed upon me
when you finally made a move and walked towards me.
And all I can see was you only in the crowded carteen.
It was an enjoyment for me liking you in this way
but torturing at the same time
because of your hot and cold..
On the day I deleted your number,
I swore that you must get out from my mind;
thought that we will never meet again..
I was doing so well for the months
but then you reappear in my life again
when I was about to forget you completely...
I hate myself for pretending dunno you at all
I regret that not saying a Hi to you
And now I afraid that I might be fallen for you again..
Signing off;
Hze =3

11:21 AM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

People,

take a look at this picture.
These are all of my STPM reference books!!
Scary lea?!
I'm quite sorry that I didn't manage to swallow all of them
within one and the half year..
Oh, looking at this picture suddenly remind me
what Kuan Shuen used to say:
"Cikgu, kita berak pun tak ade masa lo!"
Haha..Exactly
It was the toughest studying life that I ever had
yet also a happiest one!!
Again I wanna tell my ex-classmates that
I still dun regret for I transferred to that terrible school.
Instead it was the proudest decision that
I ever made in my life!!
Is the time running too fast??
I believe that all of you will never beg for
the time would turn back, am I right??
But for those memorable days we had,
yes, they do.
Remembering that we were
sighing for Mr.Eng's punctuality,
cursing J-Freak for her non-stop nagging
and sensing the vibration that came from Yun Nam's volcano..
Later,
you might see a bunch of young aunties
were discussing about FOOD~
Then,
we'll continue back to our daily meeting
we talked; we laughed; we quarrelled
and we talked and laughed again..
One thing that can be sure is
those days will never return..
I dunno how long we could keep in touch
and stay in best friends..
Perphaps this special bond might be diluted
or the feeling may be faded one day..
But I believe all of us trusted that
eternal friendship can be exist!!
Long live,
for the truetest friendship we've established!!

Signing off,

Hze =3

11:16 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Ladies and gentlemen,

Hazel's selling her first-hand STPM reference books.

Titles of books and their prices are written at the following:

For those who are interested to buy books from me,

you're welcome to contact me through

mobile phone, e-mail or facebook.

Thanks a lot and please inform your friends that I'm selling books.

Thanks again.

Signing off;

Hze =3

2:31 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Around 4 years 'interacting' with Chemistry,

one of the greatest subjects which is compulsory

to be taken by every Science student.

What a great rule they made?!

7 Periods and 18 Groups....

how many elements are in the modern Periodic Table??

Don't tell me they expected us to memorise

all the proton number and nucleon number for each of the element!?

After 'haunting' by those functional groups and their chemical properties,

we still have to remember where

is the position for every element in the Periodic Table?!

I really for sorry for Johann,Newlands,Mendeleev and Moseley

who had put so much efforts to present

the best Modern Periodic Table for us...

The third hardest examination in the world,

is this the way they place it?

It was unreasonable!!

This is ridiculous!!

Signing off;

Hze =3

11:17 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances