I thought I'll be screaming til the cracking wall collapses.

No worries,

glasses of windows and mirror are still intact =)

See people,

I'm back to Hazel's signatured decent 'guai-guai-nv' look.

=P

I had been not in black for the last 7 months.

So, kinda refreshing ^^

A sudden remind of Eileen's reaction when she first saw me in brown ...

I shall let it stays until ... I get bored to it again xP

By the way,

my mom smiled the brightest,

seeing my hairs so CUKUP HITAM. =D

********

I think I'm cursed by this place called Sg. Long.

I dunno why is it called Sungai ?!

because I dun see any sungai at here lo

but there's a lot of Longkangs la.

Whatever it is sungai, tasik or laut ...

I'll never ever develop any fondness on it !

Within 2 months,

I first lost one side of my ffffffavourite earings which is still in missing ='(

then was my condo's acess card,

lost and found IN THE MIDDLE OF BUSY ROAD, luckily.

Now,

is my anklet !

An obvious hint telling me that I'm not belong to here.

Very well,

I'm not staying for long neither.

********

It's 31ST OF JULY !!

Time flies ... ...

Remembering we were celebrating

Shenyee & Mr.Tey's birthday together in Chemistry Lab on today of last year ...

Sometimes,

I still feel that I'm still in an all-girls-environment,

but certain past times remind me that

I've walked so far from it and never ever get back to there again.

Signing off;

Hze =3

12:04 AM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Tomorrow,

when I wake up early in the morning

and look into the mirror ....

I couldn't believe that I turned my own hairs black again MYSELF.

It was like killing my own child lo !

Darling browniieee ~

I will definitely miss miss miss miss miss you very much !

I don't care if mom is going to kill me,

I will get you back as soon as possible.

Haih~ It's so not Hazel ....

Being so hypocritical,

turning hairs back into black desperately one day before my last chance to live...

right ?

What to do ?

Mom has done so much for me.

When she said :

" Get your hairs done, dun memalukan me ! "

So am I GOT my hairs done.

='( ='( ='(

********

I miss those days when I was in bad mood,

PP will accompany me, just sitting inside Mcdonald until midnight.

Then, she will ask :

" Hze, you really dun want go home ya ? 12 edi lea ! "

I wish I could call her and ask for a meet up two hours later.

='(

Signing off;

Hze =3

6:18 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

People take one day SG-JB-SG trip,

but I took one day KL-JB-KL trip.

I am here again to confess my guilt.

I know it is a kind of sin for not going back home

when it had only a few meters away from me

especially feel extra sorry to my metallic boyfriend.

Mom said he was completely out of controlled,

and dad sent him to hospital again that day ...

If he has anything happens,

I will really cry to death.

I don't keep grudge but I just can't put my pride down.

I never thought of Stulang Laut looked so beautiful,

I know I wasn't very sane.

********

Whoa~

Lillian's simply " Check Our Blog "

turns my planet into sucha popular one ever

and so my mould-growing shoutmix.

'HUGE' thank you to Captain Sea,

I will REPAY her and treat her EXTREMELY well in the future.

Signing off;

Hze =3

11:46 AM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

This post is delicated to --

my awesome cousin Rui Yi and my dardar Ka Ong

*** ***

My childhood was full of all kinds of freaky experiences,

all thanks to Zie ~

And now she is the one giving me many good advices on romance.

I wanted to deny so much that the fact we all have grown up.

No more little girls fight so hard over a stupid doll

and then a few minutes later,

patching up and loving each other again.

Thankiew so much my sweet sista, I love you.

********

The earth doesn't rotate either faster or slower,

but everything seems so much more beautiful

as the special one walks into my life.

I know this short period of one month couldn't mean anything

but to me is the best record I have ever achieved

that so much worthy for a celebration :P

I'm here to tell the world that :

Signing off;

Hze =3

4:16 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Best wishes to Da Ge Eileen and of course -

Myself.

Like what she wrote in her page :

I love this quote so much !

End of July, here it is.

Die or alive, depends on a call.

For several times,

tears flooded around mom's eye ball and she says :

" Why is my daughter always the one has sucha poor fate? "

I dunno why, perhaps no one knows why.

Always like that,

hardly survive; barely die,

end up suffering and struggling.

But I never give up and won't be giving up.

Never mind.

I will be driving a bigger car and living a bigger mansion in future =D

It sounded like self-cheating, also like self-comforting right ?

Anything la,

at least that shine-so-bright BMW X6 is the courage that keeps me breathing.

Shafern says :

" God ONLY bless good girls and boys. "

Okay although I am mean sometimes,

but not yet reaching that evil stage.

Furthermore,

I am brought up by such 'atypical' mother;

I think I am eligible to be categorised under GOOD GIRLS lo.

So,

Signing off;

Hze =3

3:35 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

I'm not sure whether is the women's instinct

considered as a general sense or a special one.

Something tells me that this is not right.

This feeling isn't strong enough to prove my statement true,

but my instinct never comes with no reason.

Mom says I shouldn't speak out everything in my mind to people,

but I still tell my dearie bloggie~

I'm cureless right ? Haih ...

Went for a run and it did help.

I wonder how long is around the life span of a mature giraffe ?

Next time I will jog first before talk to somebody.

By the way,

the swimming pool looked so attractive in night.

Dunno got ghost or not if I swim during night ~~

" Whenever you have doubt in yourself,

always back to where you start. "

Who said this huh?

It just suddenly comes into my mind.

Was it told by Mr. Eng ?

or Henry Tan ?

OMG.

How long can my 18 years' JB memories stay in my mind ?

If I have the chance to go back,

will everything be ok ?

Signing off;

Hze =3

10:02 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

First and foremost,

I heard some of my best besties cried

during their very first week

Aiyo I feel so heartaching after listened to this.

Ok I know I am only the one

didn't cry but COMPLAIN =P

Haih

I complain until my mom says :

Anyway,

Otherwise,

we wouldn't have kneed down to be tortured by others.

Everything will be fine, trust me ;D

because the world isn't coming to the end and

the sky isn't falling down.

I accidentally saw a BMW X5 yesterday,

I heard it said :

" Hazel, I'll be yours very soon. " xD

Went crazy everytime I see it,

I dunno why am I so obsessed of it.

It's definitely more attractive than a six-packed hot hunk !

Oh ya,

yesterday I had a great, wonderful midnight date with dearie PP ")

P/S :

I think Lian is going to kill me lo.

I'm scare now

P, Chi, Lene must save me lo.

Signing off;

Hze =3

10:51 AM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Kai Ning said :

" zi pai doesn't mean zi lian but it means zi ai ! "

Ok so I'm learning to be more zi ai ;D

See.

I dressed damn handsome lo.

Haha I wanna be more handsome than Da Ge =P

Yo.

Recently,

lots people say I looked cute lo ^^

It's cute not 'cute' hor.

Oh people used to describe me with the word of

errr.. Cunning xD

I prefer this latest C-word :)

I want a permanent weekend la !

Alright, Eclipse is out,

which makes me extra miss my sweethearts as

most of them are Twilight Saga's fans.

How I hope I can catch this movie with themmm ...

I guess Taylor Lautner will be hotter than in New Moon xP

Urgh.

After another week, my dead day will be here.

I better fail this very first coming exam lo !

To prove that how siao they really are !

In addition,

I was thinking that either I have hearing problem or she has vision problem.

Signing off;

Hze =3

11:43 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Note : This is a truly sentimental post.

With this remaining last drop of sanity,

I have came to this very last step.

I can hardly remember the exact amount of tears that I had shed

and the pieces of my heart that have broken.

All I know is

I am fully mental exhausted.

And now all I left to need is your generous kindness.

Through all the time,

I feel so sickening to become wiser through mistakes.

I hope this is the last time.

I plead for your sympathy and aid me out from this pain.

And you should have known that

I have better suviving ability than the others.

If it isn't intolerable,

I wouldn't have knee down and beg for your help.

Time waits no man,

only you can bring me the last miracle.

Signing off;

Hze =3

7:26 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Shen yee said He doesn't hate me

but I guess that He probably detests me a lot !

What I hate the most this is world ?

Yup, it's IMPOSSIBILITIES !!!

First it is lifeless,

then I feel souless.

Now I'm helpless

perhaps soon it will be meaningless.

I'm not stubborn,

I just stick to my own principals.

Why couldn't you understand ?!

Like what Jack Syen says :

I have been trying to contact this girl for the whole day ...

Sometimes I think that I might be over-independent.

It seems like a wrong thought now.

Most of the time,

I still need people's ears to listen my craps !

For the first time,

I feel so exiciting pity !

CANNOT !

Gonna find a way out, is a MUST !

Signing off;

Hze =3

8:02 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Trust me that I was damn down just now ...

But thanks to Dopamine,

haha I'm high again !!

Aiyo,

this inconsistant low and high feeling will eventually cause Hazel's Cancer or not huh ?

And I just couldn't seal my sadness !!

What making me feel so glad is that my best best besties are always around me.

They might not that helpful

but lending me their ears and listen to those so-called ' Hazel's craps '

and and and ...

Two VERY IMPORTANT PERSONS (VIPs) to thank tonight :

Without her,

I'm a great mess !!

There's very very few people who can actually undertsand Hazel's language.

So if you can understand it,

either partially or fully,

you will definitely be appreciated by me ^^

And my beloved Da Ge always does the best job =D

Sometimes what I need isn't your help

but is your support.

By the way,

I really hope that dawn will never come tomorrow.

I still live better in night time.

Signing off;

Hze =3

11:16 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances