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Initially,

I absolutely satisfied with what I get.

But after I came back home ... ...

think, think and think again and again ...

The number of things that went wrong increases in my mind ...

It is neither a good nor a bad one.

It's a medium one

which I can hardly survive and barely die.

Yet, I still burst into tears at last.

I got what I want but it isn't what I suppose to achieve.

Being less stubborn,

I became happier but weaker at the same time.

A bit complicated. Yea, I know.

Suddenly,

it reminds me what Eileen told me last time

So please,

don't give a damn about how other people look at you !

The most important is HOW YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF

So,

Signing off;

Hze =3

6:17 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Oh, this is really awful ...

I feel so terrible like my heart has stopped supplying blood to my organs.

I can feel that each of my brain cell is dying one by one

and those nerves lie underneath my temple are swelling

more and more obvious each day !

I think I have the aura to attract nightmares !!

It seems like we have just finished battling with that bloody

Malaysian Higher School Certificate

a.k.a Pre-University Examination ...

and here comes we gonna face the Lord of death again ... ...

I have people commented that

the ways I talk and write are somehow over-exaggerating ~

But not this time seriously.

They are all my truly heartfelt.

Signing off;

Hze =3

5:29 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Please have mercy on me for I've been struggling all the time just to ask for a better day.

I admit that I do regret for choosing this toughest path

and kept complaining that I deserve a better one than this ...

But deep down I know it clearly that it was what you want me to go through

and learn something from it which will benefit me for the rest of my life.

It is true. A absolutely true one.

It is the biggest challenge that I ever took in my entire life,

and the turning point which transformed me to another person.

Perphaps not a better person but definitely a wiser and less stubborn one.

I like who I am now.

And I feel so thankful for giving me the chance to get know a bunch of strangers

who eventually turned into people that stand a place in my heart,

a place where only those I called truest friends can live.

We don't hug each other and scream : " Our off day in here !! "

and we don't cry over one another and say : " I wanna give up now !! "

Nope. We didn't, we don't and we won't.

None of us thought of giving up.

Never ever once.

We did joke a lot, laugh loudly and went crazy most of the time ...

They are the ways we were actually helping each other and comforting one another.

I might being frivolous but deep down I treated every single second seriously and preciously.

With this chance,

I would like to apologise for my sinful, unreasonable and ridiculous

thoughts, words and actions.

For the very first and also the last time,

I plead for your mercy sincerely.

Please save me,

help me to go through this last perplexity.

====================== Prayer Closed======================

Signing off;

Hze =3

4:18 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

I want someone who won't care

that I can't gasp the concept of cleaning

Someone who realises

that half of the decisions I make

are usually ones that I regret

and I have the right to overeact at any given moment !

I want someone who knows

and

And here you are right in fornt of me,

the one who I want the most.

Signing off;

Hze =3

4:20 AM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

11:17 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Date : 19.02.2010

Day : Friday

Re : Steamboat CNY 2010

Chui Yen, Mun Chin & Da Jie were busy making Jagung Soup ...

-Hui Wen-

Icy cool Ning Da Jie gave me a cute look =)

Oh, Cola company,
you should have ask my baobei Kuan Shuen
to advertise your Cola for you !! =D

BBQ-ing

-Chui Yen-

Mun Chin's registered Sambal Prawns !!
Please trust me that it was really great ^^

Yummy Steamboat !!

12:54 AM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

By reading my sweethearts' blog ..

I can tell that we are once again facing the same disaster !!

We suppose to meet up on these few days ..

but I don't think anyone dares to bring this topic up again ..

We might no need to meet up;

we might no need to chat,

but we are always inter-linked by the same thing ...

This is what people used to called it as Chemistry ..

Ooh~

I apologise for mentioning that sensitive word ...

Mom was counting down for me at most another 20 days left ..

But time to wake up and FACE THE FACT !!

It's now 4 days and 12 hours left !!!

My heart has never been so heavy like now ...

Someone might as well take a gun and put it to my head ...

My continuous sleepless nights have lasted for 2 weeks ~

Whenever I close my eyes,

that bloody nightmare haunts my mind immediately !!

I'm so D.O.W.N now ~~~

Signing off;

Hze =3

12:08 AM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

It's another random post of mine.

xP

I really dunno what title is best suitable for this post.

Oh, it has been quite a long time ago

since the last last time I blogged at here... ...

They said,

absence makes heart grow fonder.

Urgh ! Rubbish.

If this statement works,

then why do so many long distance-love couples break up in the end ?

Okay. I know there are some exceptional cases out there.

But please admit it --

only very very few pairs of them ... ...

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I think Shafern is right ;D

And here I am,

enjoying my personal session of monologue.

My web counter tells me that

at least ten people drop in my blog each day ..

Ahem.

I was wondering,

are you people dare not to criticise me or

my posts are over-detailed until not to be further questioned ?

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I like hair is short enough to make me feel sane.

I like people called me ' Ah Girl ' instead of calling me ' Miss ' .

I like the sun goes down and the big black cloth spreads slowly across the sky.

I like my criminal Tuesday's night !!

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I'm dying to watch

and

Signing off;

Hze =3

2:43 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances

Signing off;

Hze =3

7:06 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances