Love locked down
And I continue to write the love story..
Thursday, December 31, 2009
A thirst for freedom


Through the years,
if wasn't my dad..
I can never suvive for such a long time..
Mom is so extraordinary strict to me !
This really makes me unbreathable !!!!
Being her daughter for around 20 years,
I still couldn't understand why it is so harmful for me
to hang out with friends just once a while ?
And why it is a sin if I meet up my ex-schoolmates ?
But recently,
I feel that close bond between dad and me isn't that close as before..
He used to try his very best to get me anything I want..
and even will to help me lie to mom when I go out with friends..
Perphaps men tend to become more and more stingy
when they are getting older and older..
I was too naive to think that
I'm always my daddy's little girl... ='(
As a girl who's turning into 20 for several months later..
the saddest thing is --
I don't really deserve the rights that
suppose to be deserved by a 20 years old girl =/
This makes me even angry whenever they say :
"You're getting 20 soon, we expect that you can think more than twice !!"
Dammit !
I dare to say that I'm more mature than a 30 years old woman
in the aspect of thinking even I'm only 19 this year !!!!!!!!!!!
I hate people doubt about my maturity !!
Especially my parents
who are suppose to understand me more than the others
And age is just a number !!!
What's the big deal of the digits ??!!
I really afraid of the number of 20 ....
This is my last adolescence phase..
after this.. no more teenage stage for me...
A thirst for freedom and a phobia of entering to the adult stage...
Both of them eventually create
a dilemma in me...
Signing off;
Hze =3

4:49 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances