Tonight,

again, I'm going to tell something kinda sentimental.

Perhaps my mom was right.

I shouldn't have revealed my thoughts so easily for everytime.

This would only make me to be more vulnerable and susceptible.

But then, what's the point to pretend strong

when I am actually not?

Lately,

I have became quite apathy.

Even a two days-one night Banglore vacation 

didn't really cheer me up.

I suppose to be happy and I knew that I would feel nothing,

but I still bear with some pity little hopes,

wishing it could turn out in the other way.

Yet still, honestly and obviously, not at all.

I'm almost there,

why wouldn't I feel the same way?

So sudden, I miss Kai Xin.

I miss how comfortable and how stress-free in those days being with her. 

I do feel glad coz my mom has finally being truly supportive to my rebellion,

but everytime after talking with her on phone,

I couldn't be sure is she giving me more hope

or more pressure?

Lady Antebellum was singing :

"I rather feel hurt than nothing at all."

It isn't true, and I will never agree with it.

I guess I ain't reaching the worst part as

I don't feel hurt, I just feel nothing.

Signing off;

Hze

10:46 PM
Genuinely by Hazel Frances